rant rant rant

I often times find myself being spoken to about religion and my lack of faith in god.


And while I am listening to these poor misguided souls talk to me about my defining moments in life, and how "without faith in god you surely must know you will end up in hell, unhappy and in hell", I look at them and say nothing.


I nod and smile as they go on and on about the bible and its sacred texts, while I continue to smile and nod.
Then while they finish up their long lecture I point out ever so kindly "That, while I see how you feel this way, I must let you know that your logic is flawed."


And then comes the jaw dropping.


"I am what? My logic... this isn't logic or science."
"I'm sorry excuse me, may I speak? I listened to you."


Another Jaw drops, and no not my own, I hardly ever allow for that to happen because there is no reason to sum up your surprise in ones words with only the look on your face. I'd like for them to listen to what I am saying and not allow my words to them be discredited by the betrayal of my jaw.


And so I say.


"You're telling me that because I act against your grain I am going to hell? Because I cannot believe in a 'man' in which your sacred bible texts, which have been indeed falsified, call our lord. The idea of one to two higher beings above us that will and should rule our every action in life, does not sound like the thing for me.


Something where entire races, classes, and sexual orientations are crucified for doing what they please or being who they are does not sound like a beautiful thing to believe in, where devine beings above smile down at us for shooting one of our brothers because they are a man and have slept with a man, or they are of color, or live on the streets and sit with cardboard boxes asking for a living.


And to be normal, to be normal and believe you say? Well, normality does not and cannot exist, unless there was a state of glorified uniformity among the public, but then again everyone has different life experiences, so here we are again realizing that nothing matters.


So why spend all your time telling ears that believe in much more than bibles that have been rewritten by men to cut women completely out of them? Why spend your time trying so dearly to convert the unconvertable? To change pure extacy in belief?


Can I not be free to believe in the innocence of mother natures womb? The warmth of the soil, trees, and rivers we take so much from? Can I not pray to the universe to the stars in which rule our tides and our own personalities. Can I not do that for myself?


I won't come up to you and tell you that this God you speak of means nothing to me, because I don't believe in the ethics of the people who follow him. Because I find myself generalizing people when I think of him. And because when people think of Christian, Catholic, all mighty GOD, they think of 'he'.


But now that you have asked I will tell you, that in my so humble opinion, your logic is indeed flawed. Because our bodies, our minds, our souls, and our earth are all one sacred tie. Women are powerful and beautiful.


Without disorder there would be no order, without 'hell' there would be no 'heaven', so now if you are telling me that I am going to 'hell' I might as well do it right huh?"


They shake their head no and look down at the ground, blood rising in their faces.


"So I'm sorry for offending you, but honestly you have offended me. It was nice having this chat."


And this is how it typically ends, I guess I just wanted to think for a moment, about this quote for those of you who feel the need to press your beliefs into others, not saying that you are wrong for what you believe because everyone is entitled to have their own opinion, but you are wrong for attempting to force your opinion onto others. So just think, you don't have to agree.


If you do not sin, Jesus died for nothing.


But then again, what is sin? And how can we define it?